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sitio still loves his new guitar

don't take things personally (read all 3 entries…)

fare thee well 1 year ago

It is very hard not to wonder what I said to upset somebody to make them unsubscribe from me. I know that people close accounts, they move on, they adjust subscribers, it may not be that I did anything at all. It could be that what I say just doesn’t interest them. It could be they hate my foul language. But in the end, really, I shouldn’t take it personally.

I am certainly confused as to why I have as many subscribers as I do. And yet, I lost 6 subscribers this week and I have to say that it does bother me. I think it’s the not knowing who or why that makes me sad. Sometimes I wish I could just turn off my subscriber count so’s as to not know. Ignorance… bliss? Maybe not.

So, goodbye you mystery 6. I hope you fare well. You’re welcome back anytime you like, but you’re free to go any time.

Those of you still around and interested in the verbose ramblings of an aging programmer, you’re crazy, but I love you.

Oct 18, 2006, 03:09PM PDT | 16 cheers

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sitio still loves his new guitar

Exactly

We’re being studied by a team of psychologists; the cheer algorithm alone has already won somebody tenor, I’m sure of it. If I just knew what journals to read, I’m sure I’d see our compulsive behavior all statistized and analyzed.

It reminds me of why mice are the most intelligent creatures on the planet (humans are third).

I take my scoreboards so seriously that I have to work to not obsessively calculate mileage and times WHILE RUNNING. I can’t just run and figure it out later, I run and do math.

Silly drowa that we are, why can’t we just be.

Oct 18, 2006, 10:42PM PDT | Parent | Respond to this 5 cheers

Silly Drowa washed the dishes

drowa...

the only thing I can come up w/ is a Tibetan story—being a vipassana girl myself, not familiar w/ all these flying dakinis…

Is this what you were talking about? I love the mystery, but this one took me pretty far afield, & I still don’t know that I’ve got it cuz it’s not immediately apparent.

Oct 19, 2006, 08:27AM PDT | Thread | Respond to this

sitio still loves his new guitar

some dakini fly?

Whoaaa… [sitio drools on himself]

I’ve been studying The Wheel of Life (aka The Wheel of Becoming aka The Wheel of Deluded Existence) and in some stuff (my class reader) on that, The Sakyong says:

There is a Tibetan term, drowa, which means “goers” or “migrators.” We are known as migrators because we go from lifetime to lifetime. We go up and down this scale of the three realms depending on what we do. It is said that we migrate endlessly through these realms, and theat we have been in each one endlessly.

A lot of teachers talk as much about the Wheel as a map of mind, a Buddhist psychology, describing states of being, ways of being, coming into and out of existence (birth/death) many times every moment. That we cycle endlessly in our minds through the realms in this lifetime.

We are drowa, moving, migrating, becoming, changing, fighting, constructing, defending, destroying—never just being.

Oct 19, 2006, 09:54AM PDT | Thread | Respond to this

Silly Drowa washed the dishes

that sure is some fly dakini!

what kind of class?
mostly experiential? reading? do you have papers?

where do I get someone to put togehter a READER!? (drooling now myself some)

thanks for the explanation of drowa!

Oct 19, 2006, 04:43PM PDT | Thread | Respond to this 1 cheer

sitio still loves his new guitar

SMCLA

I’m taking this—but the version through the SMC, not through Loyola.

There’s reading, but no papers. Yesterday, we acted out the 12 nidanas. I was ignorance. It gave me a powerful urge to have some pie and watch TV.

I’m sure this is a coincidence only a Buddhist would like, but we went around the circle and there was an empty cushion between craving and grasping. A massive gap. The teachings say that this is the place where we can break the creation of karma by stopping the habitual move from craving to grasping. It was pretty funny that there was a big gap in the place that there’s supposed to be a gap in the nidana process.

Uh… yeah… uh, I guess you had to be there. [sitio makes Krusty the sound failed joke sound]

Do you want a reader on Tibetan Buddhism?

Oct 19, 2006, 05:12PM PDT | Thread | Respond to this 1 cheer

I want a reader on tibetan buddhism!! - becky

I know it isn't Tibetan - sitio

um, kind of.. - becky

Yeah, it'd be fun - sitio

!!!!!!! - becky

Do you have a new address yet? - sitio

yes.. - becky

Do you have particular interests? - sitio

i don't know - becky

ooh, reader... - Silly Drowa

Trauma_Junkie is cold, but loving being in NC

you aren't the only

one to take the mileage and running thing a little overboard….

At least regarding subscribers..I’m cool.
I subscribe to pretty much no one. But I have a lot of subscribers, sometimes I lose a bunch, I guess for being boring, then a bunch come in again, and I never worry too much about it.

Nov 16, 2006, 07:06PM PST | Thread | Respond to this 1 cheer

sitio still loves his new guitar

There's not much I like about treadmills

But one of the things I do like is all the numbers going on… miles, laps, vertical distance, calories burned, time elapsed… marvelous real-time displays.

And there’s the rain thing… which I think you understand. The weather is always nice on the treadmill.

On the other hand, it seems so perverse to run indoors and it is so easy to quit. If you run 6 miles away from home, you pretty much have to run 6 miles back. On the treadmill, the end of your run is one stop button away. It’s just too easy to let that little voice win.

Plus, running 9 miles on trails in Denver in 36 degree weather with my step dad riding a bike along side a couple years ago for marathon training over xmas vacation stands out as one of my favorite runs of all time.

I’ve been following your mileage posts. You seem to be recovering well. I’m very pleased for you.

Nov 16, 2006, 07:57PM PST | Thread | Respond to this 2 cheers

Trauma_Junkie is cold, but loving being in NC

:)

the treadmill, dreadmill.

I always feel a little like a gerbil on those things, but they are so nice for the real time displays, though I have started to doubt their accuracy…but whatever….

Nov 17, 2006, 11:37AM PST | Respond to this

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Exactly

drowa...

some dakini fly?

that sure is some fly dakini!

SMCLA

you aren't the only

There's not much I like about treadmills

:)

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