i dont even think i want to stop any more
i know that its absolutly disgusting but iv lots heaps of wieght nd i look so much skinnier
sum ppl hav even commented on how much better i look
i really dont want to stop
i came this far nd im not goin bak
no matter what
and if i stop this then i no ill just stop eating
i like the way i am
everything has made me who i am
nd i wuldnt be me without this
im still not skinny enough
but im getting there
i no this is disgusting nd i no that im gonna run into sum major health problems wich should scare me into stopping
but i really dont care any more
ill be skinny
so thats all that matters
ppl might actually like me
i no they dont at the moment
so if i was skinny then it would be better
nd this is the only way
i dont wanna stop even though its really gross nd will hav lots of problems later
i no its gonna be up nd down
but i dont wanna stop
nd i dont think i could even if i tried
this is only how i feel at the moment
i no that at times i will be determined to stop
nd times that i will feel completly helpless
but i no that this is the way
this is me nd this is what i do
nd though sum ppl dont like it
i do
nd im not stopping
Comments:
Tough love, but love all the same....
Honey, you are in a full on delusional state.
Seriously. Get help. Skinny…you use the word skinny like a prayer. Fit? Healthy? Fine. But skinny is just shit and you know it.
Want to keep up with it? Great. Enjoy the heart murmurs and headaches and shame. Have fun with that. Perhaps your friends, whom are disgusted with you, will be there to tell you how delightfully skinny you are while your TEETH ARE FALLING OUT???
Unless you’re rolling in dough and can replace them, yes…your teeth will break off. In the back. In the front where EVERYONE can see.
Oh, and by the way…you will not stay skinny should you even get there. Bulimics are by and large not thin. You WILL (and babe, I’m not even kidding here) WILL WILL gain and puff up and bloat from this little game. You will never be what you want. It will never give you what you think you will will get out of it.
My guess is that you haven’t really been at this long. For hell’s sake…save yourself NOW. You ARE worth it. You are more than the shell your body is.
How do I know all this?
Twenty years and a smile that USED to be all I had. Now I have nothing.
Consider yourself warned. Now go DO something about it.
