I met her last night. I was only for a few hours but I was grateful for them. We had a couple of drinks and the chat was nice …until we got around to us.

She says she doesnt know what she wants in life at the moment. She said shes got alot of stuff going on at work which isnt helping, as she is a nurse and works all hours of the day.
She also said shes not very happy in herself at the moment. And a realtionship is the last thing on the cards at the moment.

I now know how she felt when we split up last time, and now its my time to suffer.
I miss her so badly.
I know I’ve messed up bad in the past by letting her go, but I feel so helpless now and theres not alot I can do.
I’ve never felt like this before.
I’m so heartbroken but I know that it was me who broke my own heart.
I don’t want to do anything anymore, I have no motivation and never smile and laugh anymore.
God help me out of this hole.

:-(