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xLostxSomewherex is trying to recover from her E.D

Overcome my eating disorder. (read all 4 entries…)

scared.. 4 months ago

I think..recovery is possible..I think if i stuck to it, i could recover. But im scared. Im literally scared, and worried to recover! To forget about looking good and EAT! “If I eat today, I’ll gain and I’ll be a fat cow. He will never want me back..” Thats what i think..well sort of. But really..He doesnt want me to hurt myself. I will gain. For sure. I have before. I do even if i eat a little bit. My metabolism is so screwed up. Ugh. Im like stuck in the middle. And I cant choose what side i WANT to be on. I’d rather be skinny & free from this. But i can only have one..Confused =/

Jul 22, 11:22PM PDT

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Manic[♥]Lover will weight 115lbs soon enough. Determination!!

Wow,

I am exactly in the same state of mind you are in. My metabolism hates me, its always up and down so my weight fluctuates so much that I’m like gr i can’t eat that, I’ll gain too much and look huge.. etc. I’ve been stuck in the middle for almost 3 years now.. I’m here for you. Somehow maybe we can help each other, who knows. I wanna be thin but I dont want it to be the result of an ED..

xx keep in touch :)

Jul 24, 04:09PM PDT | Respond to this

xLostxSomewherex is trying to recover from her E.D

Exactly. I do eat..I dont always like it though..i gain weight really fast. The mental and physical anguish of this is soo muchhhhh. i cant take it :[ I want to be thinner but there has to be a better way. That doesnt make me feel like this. If you want to talk you can text me 931-743-0387 :]

Jul 26, 08:57PM PDT | Respond to this

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Wow,

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