It is kind of strange you know. I am really an easy going person and usually I get along with people really well. I rarely lose my temper, but something is lost in me. I don’t feel I know who I am, or what I am supposed to be doing. I try and follow my instincts with where I go and with whom I speak, and sometimes there seems to be a point, but more often than not it is over and I move on to something different never knowing what purpose there was to the action or meeting. Maybe that is what is meant to happen, and I don’t know if I am supposed to be somewhere else doing something else or not. I am confused, and feel alone most of the time, even if I am amidst an active life and lots of people. I can’t survive without connections with people, or something alive. Sometimes it is like we are all part of some joke or experiment, and sometimes it is all so new and unexplored to me. I want so badly to help make the world a better place, but sometimes I feel so insignificant. Don’t get me wrong, I am not depressed or anything, I know it sounds like I am but I just need something and I can’t explain what that is. Weird, yes?