I lost a lot of weight a couple of years ago, about 50 pounds, and I loved my new weight. But now I`m gaining weight quite fast, to the point where clothes that fit me a few months ago simply don`t fit me at all anymore. It`s depressing. I`m still very far away from the weight I used to be at my heaviest, but I need to turn this bad cycle around and get back in shape.
I know the reasons I`m gaining weight, that is a start. Partly, I`m a huge emotional eater. And life has been seriously difficult lately, so I try to find comfort in eating, too often unhealthy stuff. And, I`m exhausted. Which means partly that I have no energy left to resist temptation. And partly that I have no energy to do much in the evenings, I just collapse in front of the TV, watch things I`m half interested in, and eat.
But I`m just adding to my problems here, adding worrying about my weight to all the other worries. I have to seriously work on getting back on track. My goal is to lose one kilo the first week, to get me going, and then half a kilo per week after that. I need to stop eating after 8pm, eat healthier, limit crisps and other yummy calorie bombs to one day a week, and get better at resisting the small every day temptations. And, I seriously need to stop comparing myself to others. At the moment, my energy and time to exercise is limited. And then I look at other peoples exercise goals here for instance, and my plans to work a little bit more exercise into my everyday life seems just quite pathetic in comparison. That doesn`t get me anywhere though, other people have other challenges in their lives, I need to just do this on my own, and not compare what I manage to do in the middle of all my troubles these days to what others do.
Right. Starting today, no crisps tonight even though it is saturday, because I had some yesterday.