graciousinhighheels is inspired!
It all has to do with insecurity, or rather, security.
I’m always so tied up in my boyfriend that it’s driving ME crazy. He hasn’t said anything else, he says he doesn’t mind it but I do… and perhaps that’s the first step to being less dependent on him.
I sometimes feel like I’m happiest wrapped up in this bubble of just me and him and along the way, I’ve forgotten how to make new friends. I think it’s not a problem of being dependent solely on him – it’s a problem of being dependent on other people in general. I always feel as though I need someone to talk to, someone to tell my day to and someone to reassure me over the things I do. It’s mainly the latter and while I can blame my family for not being supportive enough over the things I do, I can also do the ‘grown-up’ thing and focus on MYSELF. I shouldn’t consistently be so self-conscious and worried about saying the wrong thing. I think one of the reasons I’m so dependent on him is because I’m scared. I’m scared other people won’t like me and I’m scared to be alone.
It all starts with being more secure and confident about myself. These two traits form the basis of almost every item on my to-do list.
People will always come and go. I can’t depend on someone else for my happiness, it’s not healthy and it’s not fair to him. It’s time I grew up and stand up for myself more often. I’m responsible for my own happiness.