papergirl When I'm having a sad day, I stop being sad and be awesome instead.
and I’ve never been in love.
Is that pathetic? Sometimes I feel bad, sometimes I feel like it’s always been my decision. At a young age, well mid-teens really, I decided I didn’t want to spend my late high school or early college years in a serious relationship. I’d seen some screwy stuff. Anyway, now, here I am at 23 and I’ve never been in a serious relationship. I’m scared as hell of being in love. I’m an idealist, and I really want that whole ‘I’m so madly in love, he’s the only for me. I’ll cut off my ear for you’ shebang. Okay, I was kidding about the ear… I just don’t know if I’m even capable of loving without fear. In my case, I think the fear is what keeps me from loving. It’s what I use to keep love away. Sad story.