I’ve mentioned this before, but I’ve had a serious driving phobia for decades. It’s embarrassing and inconvenient. As noted in my last post for this goal (6 months ago), the last time I sat in the drivers seat with the engine on I nearly had a panic attack. I probably should have had “get over my fear of driving” as a less lofty goal, but so be it.
This will obviously mean less than sneezing to folks that are comfortable driving and do it daily, but when we were in Hope I made a valiant attempt to confront this frustratingly big fear and ended up driving around the quarry there for about an hour. Uphill, downhill, around the rock piles, frontwards, backwards, parking… it may sound silly and boring, but for me it was exhilarating to feel the irrational fear-monster loosen its grip. Hope indeed.
This was the first time I’ve driven in 20 years. It went from something that caused brain freezing terror to something genuinely fun. I’m definitely not ready to hit the road or anything, but this was a big foot on the gas to moving forward. Yay me!