It’s not even Saturday but I am so distraught over my weight. I know part of why I bounced up but some of it really seems unfair. Well, not really. I was working on exercising 5 times a week, part of it was doing Couch to 5K and weight-lifting. My personla trainging sessions ended and at the beginning of this year I stopped going to work out. ANd the habit of having 6 Hershey’s nuggets per day does not work when you are not getting your activity in. So I know what I have to do but I’ve been stcuk at about 226 for about a month now and I don’t feel particularly motivated to change. I think earlier in this time frame, in the fall when I was approaching 210 and I thought I could break 200 by Christmas, I didn’t get much positive feedback from people. No one noticed that I dropped 12 pounds. Then a whole lot of stress happened at work and I don’t feel so comfortable going to the gym. And I started to feel a little silly. I will have to get over that, self-concious, silly feeling or I can’t progress.
For me to get started – I need some kind of a break – I have to see something good on that scale or some progress when I measure myself.
Part of what has gotten me is that I had the goal to be 200 by Christmas and I failed. Then I reset the goal to be 200 by my birthday and I not only failed to lost 16-18 pounds, I gained 8 pounds, as you can see.
So part of me not feeling motivated is that I know I have to see something different – I can’t keep doing the same thing and failing. So let’s get analytical again.
1) I can get to a regular exercise class, if it’s scheduled. So I need to keep going to the 2 classes per week at the Reily Center and I’ll add on going to a salsa class on Wednesdays.
2) I need to go back to doing Couch to 5K. I think I need to walk before I can run. Running at 226 pounds is harder than at 212. SO If I have to do week 1, over and over, that’s what I’ll do.