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What does “being productive” mean to you?
I’ve thought about this on and off since I added this goal – one of the very first since I created this account – but I don’t have a clear idea of what it means. It’s as if one day I’ll arrive and ah, I’m productive now!
But what IS that?
I to hate the word productivity. I was bed bound for a long time and my dad (who took a hard line psychiatric view of ME) constantly told me, “Do something productive today, hmm? Don’t just laze about in bed as usual wasting your life.” (Or, alternatively, “You are such a disappointment. You are wasting your life, do something productive!”)
Perhaps I’m writing this here now because I have written the first entry in my recover myself from my illness goal (also one of the first to be added here) and because I’m currently working through this this of 10 things.
Being productive means that I have something to point to, that I have some graspable tangible thing to say these are the things I do. I don’t just lie in bed all day.
It is very much tied into creativity.
It means being able to answer the question, “So what do you do?” with some pride.
It means I’m not wasting my life (thanks, dad).
Ultimately, maybe that’s what this is about: feeling secure in myself and building my confidence. I have nearly taken this goal down a few times because it is vague, but then I imagine ticking it off and how good that will feel.
So, help me out…
What does being productive mean to you?