When the topic is about LOVE… That could be best explained as mutual feelings, right? It takes two to tango…!

How would we know that you are being loved by a friend, colleagues, or our partners? When you don’t even know how to love yourself?

Honestly, I hate to talk about love. It’s been a while that I’ve been keeping this to myself; just I wanted to show others that I can live without it and that I’ll be fine. I am among those who had been living a shadow life “emotionally battered” unfortunate group, ‘thought it was fair to stay away from the topic and best to keep my silence. I was made to believe that I’ve been loved… married for more than 20 years only to realize that I am not really happy. However, I preferred not to feel any regrets because it was my choice… to be on that situation… I’ve valued the sacredness of marriage, no matter what…? This is a tough Rule of Catholic Church and I want to keep the Commandments as much as I could but once in our lifetime we have to make a crucial decision and choosing between Love, Life and Religion and my feelings …I’ve asked God’s forgiveness. I’ve realized that in life we always do have options. And we sometimes just need to get badly hurt to know that it was the wrong one.

I admired people who are good at arguments, who can really be bold at times when they have to; who can easily threw bad words without minding others feelings just to get even…because I can’t do all that. I remember when my sister had told me to “Scream” to “Cry” to “Release my Feelings”....but I don’t know how. Or, I just don’t need to do all that because I have God with me to protect me. That’s all I know and that’s how I feel. As long as I have faith, I can let go of any unhappy moments in my life…just let go and move on. I feel loved by God because he made me realized so many things… To be stronger at times of trials, to be calm and still and mindful of words always, to be just happy with who you are, what you have and to be always thankful for every single day.