I admire you for dealing with things that are uncomfortable. Tears are a safety valve…even though they happen when we’re hurting. I keep thinking of tears like rain, necessary but usually gray maybe gloomy…do you ever do any gardening? Green growing things must have water. Just like your spirit, growing and healthy. The sunshine will come. Is there a nursery or place with plants near you? Maybe that will help you feel better to walk around, see what’s there, think about what you might like to plant someday, dream, imagine.

Big hug to you.