I have never, ever, ever been this happy before. Ever, in my whole life. I can’t remember a time I felt like this.
I feel on top of the whole world. I’m managing each day and am committed to managing my medication treatment to curb my anxiety and any sudden depressive thoughts.
I wake up and pretty much spring out of bed. I love going into my own bathroom to shower and brush my teeth. I love going to my own refrigerator to make my lunch. I love locking the door behind me to my apartment. I love taking the train to my job and sipping coffee at my cubicle. I love that this life I for so long only dreamed of is actually a reality.
At the end of the day I love taking the train home and stepping off and seeing my apartment building (literally just steps from the train station). I love listening and watching the trains go by from my living room window.
I love going to the grocery store and picking out the foods I want to cook and eat for breakfast, lunch and dinner. I love filling the fridge with food I went out and selected and purchased all by myself.
I love coming home to a home free of nagging. Free from my mother. I love walking around knowing everything in this place is for me and me alone. I love having privacy to do what I want. I love finally being able to invite friends over, (even though I haven’t done that as much as I had envisioned because I’m so tired after work).
I LOVE THAT MY MOTHER ISN’T HERE.
I smile so much. I’m enjoying this greatly. I don’t ever ever ever want to have to go back to the life I had before. It’s so important that I continue to manage my health and keep my depression under control so it does not control me.
Please let things keep going in this direction.