I’ve just spent a few minutes thinking about it, and I can’t figure out WHY I’m so afraid of people! It is completely irrational. I’m not afraid of getting physically hurt. Not even emotionally hurt, sometimes.
I honestly can’t figure it out. Why am I more scared to talk to outgoing people than shy people? No idea. Why am I afraid of people thinking that I had no reason to talk to them? None of it makes any sense! Why is the worst reaction a person can do to me that I can think of right now, is to give me a look that says, “O…kay…” I can’t explain it, but that is my worst fear. It has been done to me once or twice.
I guess I could try to explain it like… I’m afraid of looking awkward, like I have no social skills. Or I’m afraid of being ignored. Or that I’ll have really nothing to say. But WHY?
Maybe that’s why it’s so difficult to overcome. Because I have no idea why I’m afraid of it.
On second thought, maybe ‘why’ doesn’t matter. Just because most phobias are irrational doesn’t make them any less real. Focusing on ‘why’ didn’t get me anywhere, but focusing on how to get over it will.
Ew, I changed ‘focussing’ back to one s. My spell checker said that was wrong, but… to hell with it!