I do have some ideas on what I want to do about it, though.

1. I’ve read in other people’s entries that awareness is important. So while I’m not quite sure how to be aware, I’m going to pick on day and be aware throughout it – pay attention to what I say, what I feel, simple sensations of the day.

2. This goes along with the first one – I want to treat time as though it is more important. I want to be aware of when I am wasting it – for example, when watching TV – and before wasting it make sure that I acknowledge and accept my wasting that time, instead of being mindless about time use.

3. Every day I want to do something I consider living instead of existing. Eventually I will see how I come to definte this based on what I choose – basically things I feel are significant or worthwhile or an experience.

4. Make myself vulnerable. Do and say the things I want to do and say. Be brave.

That’s it for now. As for today’s #3: I read THE LAST BATTLE, talked to a brain surgeon with brain cancer, drove around with a friend listening to Tilly and the Wall, cashed my first paycheck, tried to comfort a child going through a night terror.