i need to forgive her for being an alcohalic.. i know its not her fault and has nothing to do with me but seing as how she was the “perfect’ mother for my older sisters until i was 12 and then did a 180 i cant help but feel ive always been less important…. or she never loved me enough or shed be able to quit for me… i know its time to grow up and take responsability for my life but i feel like shes the reason my life didn turn out perfectely planned