I don’t think any of my friends are on this site, but what if he is? He’ll definitely recognize my username… Maybe this wasn’t such a good idea. takes a deep breath
No. I have to do this.

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Okay, I really like my boyfriend. I’ve been with him for, I think… about a year and a half. I loved him. But now I don’t… I think. I’m not sure at all how I feel, but I don’t think I love him anymore. I don’t want him to touch me, I don’t want him near me. It’s really odd. And the strangest thing is, it was an overnight change. Saturday night, we stayed up late watching TV, and he was holding me and it was so sweet, and I fell asleep in his arms. I woke up a few hours later, and we went off to our respective rooms (I to the guest room, he to his bedroom; I was at his house for the weekend.) The next morning, I tried to avoid standing too close because I knew he’d want to put his arm around me, or kiss me. I couldn’t handle that. It was really, really weird.
Though I don’t understand how the change could happen so quickly, I don’t love him anymore. I don’t have a reason, either! That’s what makes it so frustrating! I mean, of course, there are things about him that irk me. There’s things about every single person I meet that irk me. It’s not just him. But, see, the things about him that annoy me, aren’t bad enough, not even added up, to break up with someone for!
Maybe I didn’t just… stop loving him between Saturday night and Sunday morning… Maybe I haven’t for awhile, but just didn’t notice.
sigh I have to break up with him. I’m miserable because I don’t want to continue this. I can’t keep going like this.
I think I want to break up with him, and not have another boyfriend till I’m old enough to handle one…