you’re once again overanalyzing
this portion of your life too
much… much of what I’ve read
tonight has been very insightful
to who you are and what you want
to be. Like I posted earlier in
a reply, it’s something you have
to do as a collective… yes you’re
right that every relationship has
meaning, but what you want in a
relationship is one that fulfills
all your needs good bad and the
strength to give it your all…
I found myself in many relationships
where I was giving it all… but
the other end was just giving it
half.. this is what made me laugh
until one of my friends hit the nail
on the head and said “I just want
to be in it with a guy who wants
to go at it 100 for 100 not 50/50”

to me that makes more sense than
the latter.
you give other people too much credit
yes you have to analyze who you are
and know that you’re worth it.
but in matter of the heart, and
yes relationships even friendships
are matters of the heart, you just
have to say I’m going to give it
my all plunge in head first go
through “the good, the bad, and
the ugly” after it’s all done and
each person in that relationship
is giving it everything and you
believe this is the person you can
go through hell or high water with
that’s where you belong. this goes
for friends too… good friends
will bail you out of jail… best
friends will be sitting right next
to you the next day.
you want what everyone wants…
you’ll find it, of that I’m certain
from all the reads of your
list of “things to do” you’re in
a direction to find the answer to
all these questions and more…
but sometimes the wisdom of it all
doesn’t make sense.