I had a date tonight with a woman from the dating service I belong to. It was pleasant but she talked on and on about how much she disliked the dating scene and the men she had dated. So after a while I changed the subject to more about her and me. After that it went well and I was mindful of staying in the present moment and being real, i.e. being myself.

But then she said she had to go early because of some committment to her son and that she didn’t want to exchange phone #’s or have another date.

So, I felt cheated because she seemed to dominate the conversation and then left early and I never got to the questions that would have been important to me and I was left with, “what did she base her decision on anyway?”

I would have liked to know what she was looking for in a relationship and I usually ask that question but I never got to it tonight.

So, now that I have had time to think, I realize I didn’t completely honor my integrity because I didn’t express my dissapointment to her. So I see now that I let her do it to me. If I had asked for what I wanted, the result might have been the same but I wouldn’t have this sense of regret and failure (I should note that it isn’t a huge dose of regret and failure but it is there).