It is about motivating myself really, to move, do something, shake things up inside and just do it.

The hardest thing I face is knowing I can do somethings, perhaps even do them very well and not motivating myself into doing something about them. I know that I have fallen into the deep pit of procrastination and I can see that I will suffer greatly if I do not do something positive into moving myself up this steep mountain I dug myself into.

I think I felt very comfortable the last couple of years having had a couple of good years before and not paid much attention to the danger that can arise from just doing nothing. I got deeper into a depressive mode that is apparent from my inactivity, my weight gain, smoking habit et …

the thing is, I know better and frankly as I heard before, we do more out of frustration than when we are in a comfort zone. Well I am frustrated with doing nothing. I am frustrated with knowing I can do some things so well and not doing anything about them. I am frustrated with seeing others move forward while I am stagnating if not moving backward.

I am going to do something about it: wake up!