isn’t this something?
I am so proud for being able to be good even at my lousy current job which I have no interest/predispositions/motivation for. Look, world, how genious am I! Hmmm what is to be proud about such a stupid situation.
Then I wander why I’m not drawn to things I like. Of course I am not drawn to things I like if I am proud for doing something I dislike. It seams obvious but this question was bothering me at least last 3 years, it was my main obstacle. Now it is gone.