so it is Mon, house is in worst mess then ever, cupboards are not assembled yet, and my enthusiasm is gone! in life perspective, it’s nothing, but in today’s perspective (and today is everything that really IS) i feel robbed. again that “not getting the help i need when i need it” lightmotiv.
why i give anybody so much power over me? – that is the question

PS. but i know the answer: expectations! expecting smthing from smone = giwing my power away. no matter how rightessnous those expectations are. from being right is only one small step to being victim.
it is all abut playing the game of having needs and fullfilling them.

what i want is, when i am faced with close person with less energy then me, not to let them rob me, but to encouradge them. but how? what do you think?