I have got loads of confidence its just when I was a little kid I got bullied for not speaking up and its ironic that Im afraid of speaking up when the reason I got trashed by some one else was beacuse I was a shy girl who couldnt voice her views – the most I could do when I was a kid was nod or shrug. Im not like that now but I dont feel secure in a big group saying what I think with people like the person she was.
It feels like its deeprooted, I can only talk to others with confidence when they are showing an intrest in me or if they talk first! I hate public speaking, I gabble and I get really touchy when I get called a shy kid beacuse inside I feel so confident but I just dont know how to show it.
Please help!