What I mean about “pain” is not a headache or what most people define as pain. No over-the-counter meds have helped me and I’m seeing a specialist at a Pain Clinic about it.
It goes almost 10 years back in time. Started as a burning pain in the skin after a hysterectomy. The reason for the hysterectomy was cancer.
Since then the pain have gone deeper and today it is like a roaring flame that burns all the way down to the bone. It’s not constant – yet – it comes and goes and can last anything from a few moments to weeks. Sometimes it’s constant, sometimes it’s stabbing.
The specialist pretty much agreed with me that I have some sort of nerv damage after the hysterectomy, but since I am epileptic he wants to look into that too.
Obviously, the meds I’m on for the epilepsy is what they prescribe for nerv pain. So in theory I shouldn’t hurt at all.
There are other things they can do about this though.
Nerv blocks is one of them and I can’t say that I’m comfortable with the thought of someone digging with a knife in my neck among all the nervs that are gathered in there. But if that’s the only solution, I will take it.
It’s difficult to explain how it effects me, but I am aware of that I get very snappy and short tempered during the times when I’m hurting. The skin gets hyper sensitive and even clothes will hurt. Showers are a nightmare because of the changes in temperature that occures.
If you can imagine being without skin, I think you’re close to understanding. That’s the best way to describe it. And it’s been spreading to pretty much every part of my body today.
Today I’m getting through the painful days by drinking way too much of Southern Comfort….or whatever I have nearby with alcohol in it. In the long run it’s not a good thing, but for now it’ll block my mind from the rest of me. Since I have epilepsy there’s side effects if I drink too much alcohol, so it becomes a bad circle.
If the hysterectomy caused this, it’s pretty ironic, coz it saved my life and pushed me straight into this very painful state.
If there’s anyone out there with the same problem, please let me know. I’m not the only one with chronical pain, but most people don’t talk about it.
