For about a week I forgot to write on here. He was a great guy he was 24 and all the good stuff but I couldn’t do it. I didn’t feel the things I needed to feel to be with him.

It sucks I know a lot. Besides him and HD were really good friends almost brothers and now they dont’ talk anymore so I guess that is what bothered me too a lot.

I saw him today a week after we broke up and it was weird he was my first bf, but I was questioning the reasons he was with me so I broke it off.

I realized I don’t want a bf but I wanna have fun. It seems like all of a sudden guys wanna talk to me and get to know me. One thing W gave to me was the confidence to move on and walk down the street with my head up high and talk to guys and wave at them.

W made me realize I’m not such a bad person and I thank him so much even thought my best friend hated me for breaking up with him because I’ve always wanted a bf and now I get one and I break up with him. It’s like so wat he made me realize that I’m not long term gf material and I think he wanted that.

I didn’t want to hurt him later, so I did it now. I think it was for the best.

Right now I can’t sleep I’m talking to people school starts tomorow and I don’t wanna go I used to but not now. Maybe we get some new students and I make new friends.

I’m smiling more and here is proof, I have pics with smiles on my face.