i really miss everyone here at 43things..it has been a difficult journey as of late. I had to go against one of my greatest convictions- to honor my body. I purposefully had to sabatoge my well-being to “prove” to the medical community that something is truly wrong with me. I had to prove to them that I was having seisures and major neurological difficulties due to what I was eating. I had created a special diet for myself years ago. This diet kept away all symptoms,Although I knew something else unexplainable was underlying my illness. In going against my convictions and removing myself from my diet,I finally have validation. It is the worst feeling in my entire life to know that I had to disrespect my body and my mind in order to have acceptence from others with a title. I just hope that I have not recieved further neurological damage in gaining their respect. Now they are willing to do the testing I have so long begged for. I have had doors open for me with my medical challenges so I hope in the coming weeks I will be able to make this goal come true….
reverie