Almog

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I have such a good girl. 3 years ago

She deserves a better mother. Sometimes I wish she had one.
It’s not that I’m a bad mother. It’s not that I don’t love her to bits. It’s just that I don’t enjoy it. She deserves someone who would enjoy her, as she is so enjoyable. She deserves the best mother in the world.
And I would get to be some aunt or something. Her mother’s best friend or something. I would get to know her and love her and have a meaningful relationship with her without having to mother her.
I want to cry now, but I can’t. This is a new thing. Started last night. I’ve never had a problem crying!

Sep 06, 2006, 02:57AM PDT | 1 cheer


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Sep 06, 2006, 03:10AM PDT

Almog

I only sound totally busy.

The sad truth is, I don’t do much. I only plan much.
Crying is something I’ve never had a problem doing… I have a natural talent! I don’t know what’s wrong with me! As for my kids, I don’t even enjoy the nice things anymore. That’s why I feel like such a failure as a mother – I know, I’m not a failure, but I hate the way I feel about them now. My daughter is being charming and smart and funny, and I hate it. She hugs and kisses me, and I hate it! She says the loveliest things in the most tender, beautiful voice, and I just want her to shut up and not talk and not touch me! That can’t be right.

Sep 06, 2006, 09:50AM PDT | Thread | Respond to this

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Sep 06, 2006, 03:00PM PDT

Almog

Thanks, Red.

I do love them, they are great kids. I’m sorry you had such a hard time with your daughter! And we know it’s just a stage, and we know that we are good mothers and that they are good kids and that we are all going through a difficult time and it will pass, and still it’s soooo hard at the time.
Hugs back at you!

Sep 07, 2006, 12:38AM PDT | Thread | Respond to this 1 cheer

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Sep 07, 2006, 02:19AM PDT

Isn't it funny - Almog
:-) - BetterRed wants to be Better...
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Sep 06, 2006, 03:11PM PDT

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Sep 06, 2006, 05:17PM PDT

Almog

I will credit you

as if you said something.

Sep 07, 2006, 02:14AM PDT | Respond to this

RUNRGRL is trying to fix what has become broken needs to either let 43 things go or get back into it

Almog

I am struck by the honesty with which you speak, and it is in this honesty that your love for your children speaks volumes and your wishes for them and yourself as a family. There is no such thing as holidays, sick days, time and a half, time in lieu, bonuses (cash that is), it is the most demanding job ever, the responsibility of it heavier than anything I could personally imagine. And while it is incredibly rewarding the energy it take s to do it day after day is sometimes hard to find. Be kind to yourself, forgive yourself for those days when you feel less than the mom you wish to be, and remember the person you are apart from being a Mom.

Sep 12, 2006, 10:24PM PDT | Thread | Respond to this 1 cheer

Almog

Thanks again.

I’m not beating myself up. I used to, but not anymore, or not as much. I’m doing as well as I can, and by the way, it’s not so bad. It’s just that, they are so wonderful, I sometimes feel they deserve better yet. And I wish I could enjoy it more. Why can’t I? They are so much fun!

Sep 13, 2006, 06:43AM PDT | Respond to this


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