guh!
why do people like to play with me like that?!
lol
I am at an empasse… wondering where to go from
here, blah I can’t even keep up with my thoughts
when it comes to this subject… I know what I should
be doing.. but it’s so darned cruel… grrr!

I wish I could tell them all I hate them and that I
don’t want to see them again ever, but how do you
say that to people you’ve cared about and have shared
such wonderful moments with?
guh!
I guess it’s just a list of people I have to make
to tell them straight face to face just how much they’ve
screwed with me and it’s time to stop.

anyhow I just reread some entries I made and just
realized the prev writ didn’t make sense… so I
wanted to post this instead and just wish my anger
and frustration would subside…

I know I can keep getting up and keep moving forward
but I hate it when people open up old wounds with
their dull edged knives…