Well I wish I could say that i’m making progress with this… but I just took up some more hours… I suppose it’s good for the bank account… I suppose I can just chalk it upto the graduation trip I am going to go with my nephew on, extra spending money… but I don’t know if this is such a bad thing… should I focus more on spending time with family and friends? or am I just being too reclusive at this point? I suppose I just need to get more interaction with my friends and family but around now everyone I know is out and about having a good time at clubs and just out at parties. I guess I’m not quite into that scene right now. Maybe… a little more towards my bday or nearer to New Years I’ll get the party vibe… but I just don’t feel it… I feel like a part of me is missing right now, that I have no real course to pursue. I really wish I could pinpoint why I’m not so outgoing right now, that I wish I had an excuse to leave work and go do all the meeting and greeting that my friends are used to, but oddly enough I’m not upto doing all the craziness that I’m used to… old age? Maybe I’m becoming a boring person lol
well I guess time will tell… my friends and family call me more lately telling me about outings that I am invited to.. my family… definitely I love seeing my nephews and neices and going to birthday parties, but I wish my friends would stop trying to get me together with more and more people that want me to give them answers than just to chill…. I guess I just want to help one person at a time.. and maybe doing that I can help myself. I don’t know… but I’m here at work and I feel safe. No big bad wolf knocking at my door telling me to go out! lol I guess I shouldn’t be complaining either… I have good friends a good family. I sure wish I could find a reason to work less, play more, be aloof… but I don’t see why I should. So with a troubled brow I sit here writing this note trying to figure out what my next course of action is going to be… plan for more work… or plan more trips with people that may bale out at the last minute? I don’t know…