I am doing okay today…so far I woke up and peeled a bit of skin off a scab that I am trying to heal up before a date on Thursday…I am so embarrassed by these spots marking my lack of self-control…it’s just so blaring obvious…and I am really affected emotionally throughout the day due to these feelings of inadaquecy…a feeling of being unable to repair and grow and leave this bad habit in the past…begin new and fresh and stop the chaos and injury…I want to feel beautiful