I finally worked up the nerve. I almost threw up in her lap when I was talking and nearly passed out from the stress of it. I know that sounds stupid, but this was one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do.

Lumpectomy, with no anesthesia-no problem
Child birth-twice-no problem
getting the crap knocked out of me every day by my dad-no problem

but this -THIS- nearly broke me. They have been my angels and my saving grace my entire life. To stand to them, look them in the eye and tell them I’m openly going to defy their wishes was by far one of the hardest things ever. I’m so relieved now that it’s over. They took it well and said they will still stand by me and provide anything I need. Of coarse, there will be no asking them for anything. I cannot bring myself to do that. But the offer is there. And that means the world to me.