I don’t think i will ever forgive myself 4 leaving my children. although they’re in the safest place with their father, who doesn’t do drugs or drink 2 excess. he loves them dearly. whereas i’ve been in chaos these past few years… it’s still no excuse. what i am finding the hardest thing now is the hurdles (some actual fact the rest my mind has gone a wonderful job in making a mountain out of a molehill) i keep coming up against 2 me getting into contact with them. i will try 2 get in contact with them soon.