my friend is giving me a long term loan on a bike. i dropped it off at the bike station (on vanderbilt in lovely prospect heights) to get a tune up. it will be ready on saturday. ecck!!! i am scared to get it because now it means i am going to have to ride it! scary.

yes, i am lame. i do not know how to ride a bike. i rode a bike once when i was 9 or so, fell off of it and almost got a concussion. i have never been on a bike since. now i’m almost 30 and i realize i just have to get over it. everyone in brooklyn rides a bike and my life would be so much easier if i did too. still, the fear is there.

i am not quite sure what i am afraid of. i think i see myself as this “big girl” who is totally uncoordinated and can’t do it. i know it’s all in my head which is why i am even trying doing this at all but the mind is a powerful thing. it can really hold you back. i learn that again and again.