turtletortoise

Let go of the past (read all 3 entries…)
In particular 2 years ago

1)Hurt feelings from my relationship (if that’s what you call it) with Chad
2)My lack of responsibility in my early 20’s; I am what I am because of it; and that’s ok
3)My inability/refusal to take action regarding abuse, lies about falling down stairs, heavy make-up and embarrassment about having to ask for help

Oct 13, 2006, 03:00PM PDT | 4 cheers


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turtletortoise

There must be a process

to let go. The progress I thought I’ve made since January in respect to Chad, by my standards was good. I don’t have a lot to compare it to, but then the other day, something reminded me of him and I started thinking of all the things he did that used to piss me off. Very trivial events, but I suppose I had such a negative emotional reaction to them because our relationship was already in shambles.

Oct 16, 2006, 08:37AM PDT | Respond to this

turtletortoise

So . . .

If there is a process, I must be way off. I talked about things being over with him with a co-worker tonight, and it didn’t go well. I’ve been crying ever since. Then, to make matters worse, he called and I answered. He was all aplogetic and shit. I need for him to continue being a dick so I can STAY STRONG.

Nov 05, 2006, 05:52PM PST | Thread | Respond to this

Angie

I guess that if you can think of the negative side of things, it probably reminds you why it all ended anyway, and that you’ve made the right decision. That is already a good start!

About speaking to him on the phone, if you think that this would help you figure things out and help you guys stay in good terms, maybe it is worth talking things through calmly.

Good luck and keep well!

Hugs,

Angie

Dec 13, 2006, 01:25PM PST | Respond to this


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