thatgirlsab

never become too skinny (read all 6 entries…)
I know I have a problem 3 years ago

This is kind of a rhetorical goal, since I have only ever truly been “skinny” for about two weeks out of my entire life. But I do have to admit that I have a problem. I was looking at some old pictures the other night and recognized that, at times when I thought I was fat and needed to lose weight, I in fact looked just fine. And now that I have begun to lose weight again (because, of course, I think that I need to), I want to be aware of what I really look like, and what is healthy, because I don’t want to become one of those too-skinny women that look more like a bobble-head doll than anything else.

I can zip up that size 4 dress I wanted to fit into a while ago. It’s snug, but it fits. It will probably look fantastic in another 5 lbs. When it starts to feel roomy, I need to start eating cheesecake again! I know this, but yet I have these thoughts of “my face is still too chubby…I would look amazing in another 15 lbs.”

It makes me sad. I feel like I’m such a smart girl, and I really should know better, and I don’t know where it comes from.

I should probably talk to my therapist about this.

Oct 16, 2006, 08:06PM PDT | 18 cheers


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Oct 16, 2006, 10:31PM PDT

thatgirlsab

thanks :)

I think it is a little deeper. I think part of it is that I truly have a problem seeing my body as anything other than heavy, even when I’m not. I recognize it but am not sure how to deal with it.

Oct 17, 2006, 08:39PM PDT | Respond to this 1 cheer

Paul Nelson

Yeah, you're so gorgeous

I have no idea what the deal is.

Oct 17, 2006, 07:32PM PDT | Thread | Respond to this

thatgirlsab

thank you

I wish I could stop feeling like being thin is so crucial to being the best me that I can be. Because I know it’s not. But I still feel that way. My rational and irrational minds are at odds with each other.

Oct 17, 2006, 08:41PM PDT | Respond to this 5 cheers

1nonchalantgirl

I think

size 4 is perfect. I wouldn’t let yourself get under that though. Your a very pretty girl and I know people tell you all the time, but if your not truly happy inside none of that matters. Just keep your head up kiddo and don’t sweat the small things.

Oct 18, 2006, 09:40AM PDT | Thread | Respond to this 1 cheer

thatgirlsab

you know...

...I think size 4 is perfect too. But I find myself saying things like “but a size 4 these days is really a 6 or 8 because of vanity sizing…” and totally being an idiot about it. A 6 or 8 is fine too! Sheesh.

I need to focus on being fit and healthy rather than just being thin.

At least I know I have a problem. :P

Oct 20, 2006, 07:18AM PDT | Thread | Respond to this 3 cheers

titilayo

“I need to focus on being fit and healthy rather than just being thin.”
Although I’m probaby in better shape than I’ve been in a long time (maybe in my life), I’m finding it hard to get used to the reality that I’m “putting on some size” (as my aunty says) as I get older. I’m trying to focus on “fit and healthy” too, but you don’t really see “fit and healthy” in the mirror, you know? It’s a mind thing, and those can be the hardest to change. Let’s keep working on it!

Oct 20, 2006, 08:09AM PDT | Thread | Respond to this 1 cheer

thatgirlsab

yes, definitely.

Let’s keep working on it.

I look at someone like Oprah who is not tiny, but she radiates health and wellness which is very attractive. I’d like that too, and I’m trying to get over thinking being thin is just as important, because it’s really not.

Oct 20, 2006, 08:32AM PDT | Respond to this 1 cheer

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Oct 23, 2006, 11:37AM PDT

thatgirlsab

therapist

I mentioned this to my therapist this week. We’re going to work on it next time. What’s weird is that I’m usually really good at separating my rational thoughts from my irrational thoughts. I know that my feelings of being fat are irrational. However, even my rational mind thinks I really should lose some weight. And I think that when I do lose the weight I’m aiming for, my rational mind will still think I need to lose weight. That’s the problem.

I have been told recently that I have a “body that won’t quit”...whatever that means. So it’s not like other people look at me and think I’m gross. I get that. But I just can’t reconcile it all in my head. Definitely an issue I hope to resolve! :)

Oct 26, 2006, 05:34AM PDT | Thread | Respond to this 2 cheers

Douglas

I don't know

to what extent this is a problem for you clearly it is to some degree or you wouldn’t have posted this.

You might try this –
Say out loud to yourself, in the mirror, “I love you just the way you are”. Do it twice daily, once in the morning and once in the evening, for 3 weeks.

You may think this is a little corny or you may be embarassed to think that you need this or some other reaction. You don’t have to do it, of course, and it may not address what you really need here but its easy and simple and you might be surprised what it can do for you.

Oct 29, 2006, 06:54AM PST | Respond to this

Living In God's Exquisite, Miraculous Sufficiency wishes everyone a very Merry Christmas!!!

Size 4

Sabrina,

I think my bones are bigger than a size 4. My goal is a size 6 and even at that, most people say that would be too thin for me. Right now, I’m about a size 12 (snuggly).

Am I huge? I don’t know. I don’t think so. I’m sure another 25-30 lbs off me would seem perfect, though, most think that’s too much when they see me in person.

Right now, because I’m in the process of a lot of life stuff—career changes, a couple narrow misses at death, giving up my day job, stepping into the unknown, I’ve had to put exercise (for the first time) in my adult life on hold until I can get things settled.

I’m working my regular engineering job full time and stock trading full time. Raising 2 kids with my husband and doing our other business, too….has got me way overwhelmed. Slip in near death, that just about puts anyone over the edge.

Sabrina, if you cannot be happy with yourself no matter what stage in life your life, no one else can. Life really is too short to be so concerned about this that it makes one miserable. I think your dad thought you were the most beautiful girl in the world—He would want you think that way no matter what size, looks, or anything.

Blessings,
Doris

Oct 26, 2006, 09:13AM PDT | Respond to this 1 cheer


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