I feel that it is so very important that I keep focused. I think it stems from the ‘fact’ (figure of speech) that I conceive the world as essentially chaos and the order that exists a barely concealed violence against the individual. Against this swirling maelstrom of disorder and threat it is important that I goals that are clearly defined and that I am in control of what goes into my body. Giving up smoking and alcohol is part of this … the sheer absurdity of being dictated to (and that’s what it is) by a paper tube filled with leaves!!! My dislike of authority makes it more important that I exercise greater self control. hmmm …