I feel that I make myself miserable. Like… I already feel pretty crappy about myself, but i’ll do shit to make it worse.
Like not exercising, not going to an OA meeting, not eating right, wanting to relapse/die, not talking about this shit.
Fuck.
My sponsor is leaving soon for a week!
I hope I don’t relapse!!

~Me.
(apparently self-pitying self centered me. Durh)