mintchip is trying to get back on track!
My whole life I have had a problem with crying. I cannot control it. I cry when I’m sad, (normal) but I also cry when I’m frustrated, angry, or feel like I don’t have control of a situtation. Although I’ve never done this to manipulate a situation (although I’ve been accused of that) it did often work in my favor when I was younger. However I find that as I get older, it is embarrassing, and makes people not take me seriously. I already look young, so people view me as a child, or (men) view me as a “stupid emotional woman”. I would give anything to rid myself of this horrible problem. Recently I had a situation arise that lead me to become emotional. I had my boyfriend’s parents on the phone and his mother sais she’d call me back on the house line. Unaware that she hadn’t hung up the phone I heard her say angrily, “It’s always something with her”. It really hurt me. I know that my behavoir isn’t acceptable for an adult. However I cannot control it. Poeple don’t understand how hard it is for me, that I do not want to react this way, that I am constantly fighting back the lump in my throat and my tears. I have even considered hypnosis. I sometimes am able to handle situtiations in the proper assertive manner without the tears, and afterwards feel relieved, and pleased with my success. However I still find myself struggling to make it a regular occurance. I recieved a fortune cookie once that said: One cannot put out a fire with tears. I try to tell myself this when these situtations arise, but it doesn’t always keep me from crying.