ever since i first laid eyes on my ex i suppose i fell for her there and then.she was gorgeous and perfect to me in every way.it wasnt just about the looks even though i am quite fussy and shallow at times.i felt a connection with someone for the first time in my life and i was the happiest id ever been.when we broke up i can honestly say that i have never felt pain like it,a pain that doesnt seem to get easier.i think for the first 6months the only time i felt at ease was in my sleep,but as soon i woke up i would remember and the pain would set in.i think im a strong individual but i must admit i never thought love would hurt that much…its been 2yrs since we split and i still think about her,not everyday anymore which is good,but every now and then.but it still hurts and in a crazy fucked up way without fully realising it i still think maybe we will get back together oneday and i know that i have to completly forget that idea to move on in my life and start achieving goals which were once important to me.love hurts when it dont work out and im living proof that love can also hold you back.but next time il be a little wiser and stronger!when i say next time i mean i hope that there will be a next time because even though it fucking hurts when things dont work out,you just cant beat the feeling and happiness you have when it is working so il always give love a go!