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I`m totally overwhelmed again 3 years ago

I had lots of plans for the weekend. I was going to fill out the application for finacial support for studies, in case I decide to go for that plan. And practise lots of piano. And start working on an article idea. Among other things. I haven`t done anything. Nothing! I`m just feeling overwhelmed and depressed my the whole situation. I really, really don`t know what to do when it come sto my career. I`m on 50% sickleave from work now, I can`t go on doing what I do, and my contract expires in january anyway, so I proably have to find something new. No idea what that is. I`m thinking about freelancing, but I`m having serious doubts as to wheter I have the energy and the skills to do that. It feels a bit hopeless really. And beacause of that I can`t even take the little steps to do somthing about it, I`m just paralyzed and procrastinating like crazy. I haven`t even been able to find the application papers (I have them somewhere but can`t remember where) or take a look at them this weekend. And I haven`t practised any piano, I`m in that “oh who am I kidding I`ll never be any good at this anyway” state of mind, so nothing gets done.
I`m really trying to do the little pieces instead of taking in the whole situation and going into that state of panick, but I can`t seem to do that now. Must try to work out how.

Nov 05, 2006, 04:31AM PST | 2 cheers

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snowleopard

that's a sympathy cheer

obviously.

Hey, the weekend’s not over yet. If we put the Soap Dragon excitement to one side for the rest of the day, there’s plenty of time to fill in those forms.

As for piano, isn’t that supposed to be something you do for pleasure? If you don’t feel like practising, then maybe leave it until you do. Or perhaps go and sit down at the piano and then you’ll get into it again.

Good luck, hope you feel better soon. And remember, above all, Don’t Panic ;)

Nov 05, 2006, 04:46AM PST | Thread | Respond to this 1 cheer

Curlychaos SoapDragon is sending lots of love and support to Wren

There is

ofcourse still a few hours left of the weekend. I`ve nowe spent a coupl of them out in the pooring rain, entertaining my dogs. And in a couple of hours I`m going to a friends for dinner. But there is a couple of hours left before that. And I have at least managed to locate the papers on my way out to the rain, that is some progress.

The pianoplaying is just for fun ofcourse. It just adds to my general frustration of giving up once things get a little challenging. Why do I do that? I have no staying power, that`s my problem. I`m supposed to learn a new songs and some new chords that were a bit difficult for my next lesson. I tried it on friday and it didn`t work immediately. Obviously, if I knew how to play new things immediately, there would be no need for lessons and I would be a world famous pianist long ago. ;) But, because it was a bit difficult, it was less fun, and immediately I`m in procrastination nation. Sigh. I do that in a lot of areas in my life, and it`s no good.

OK, must get to it now, I trust you two will keep Morten under observation for the rest of the evening while I try to play some piano and fill in the forms. ;)

Nov 05, 2006, 06:29AM PST | Respond to this 1 cheer

Zanna Campanula bookcart lady

yes, stine, never fear

plenty of life in the weekend yet.
i’m good at losing applications forms and important stuff like that, too. as you know. oh, it’s obvious, it’s run off with my diary. it must have been morten.

i’ve spend the morning sitting (well, standing) and watching umbrellas fly and trying to keep my newspaper (well, book) dry. alb did a 9km cross country run in the pouring rain; i held the bags. also, i was listening to morten on my mp3 player too see if he’d sent me any messages, but the race organisers were part of the conspiracy and kept playing tina turner really loud so i couldn’t concentrate.

argh, now the sportsman is yelling to me from the bath. i feel like a wag.

must fly.

but not before saying that the new soap song is amazing. i love it. hooray for soapleopard!

Nov 05, 2006, 05:20AM PST | Thread | Respond to this 2 cheers

snowleopard

I suspected all along

that you were out having a manicure and then doing a spot of shopping with your best mate Coleen, before seeing the error of your ways and returning to the SoaP fold to make Posh jealous by eclipsing her in fame and fortune.

Hope Alb is suitably well-groomed and ready for all the publicity of being a hab ;)

Nov 05, 2006, 05:39AM PST | Respond to this 2 cheers

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Nov 07, 2006, 06:08AM PST

insightful

we all define ourselves...

by what we do and the things we achieve. If we all just sat back and relaxed in the knowledge ‘that we are the best we can be at this moment in time’ there’d be less to worry about.
What do you think?

Oct 01, 2007, 01:52PM PDT | Respond to this

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