The more I’ve been reading about Kabbalah the more I’m seeing similarities with what my mother taught my brother and I as a child. I see this as the reason why I am so drawn to Kabbalah. My mother never had a book she could hand us or group we could meet with to discuss our beliefs. It’s quite refreshing to go online and see people discussing what I was raised with… it’s also kind of weird because for so long my brother and I never shared what we were raised with, out of fear of being ostracized for not being Christian.

So, I’ve applied for an online class… which I hope will come through since I applied for the scholarship program… and I’ve been reading as much as I can online and changed my daily meditations to a more concentrated meditation.

My meditation is now focused on light and overturning all the darkness within me. It’s amazing once you begin to realize how much work you have to do and surprising that some parts your ego wants to remain in darkness. It is a process though… and I’m already enjoying the changes I’m seeing within me.