I make myself depressed about this all the time… I hate it, it sickins me. I mean its just to hard for me to loose weight, not my body type or anything, just me, I cant keep myself to it. Im just too lazy to work out. But I need to try. People say that Im fine and Im not fat. I know Im not fat, but Im fat to myself. A weight I’d like to be at is at least 120. Im 143 right now.