Since my early relationship days no matter how ecstatically happy and in love I was with my partner, I always wanted relationships with other women as well. I thought this was a completely unrealistic situation and resigned myself to standard monogamous relationships.


After getting married for the second time, I found polyamory groups and people. During a brief period of time we opened up our marriage and I was able to pursue other relationships and did successfully have one such relationship. Unfortunately my wife was not comfortable with our open marriage and wanted us to go back to a monogamous relationship.


My wife is a wonderful woman and I love her very much, so I have decided that being with her is worth giving up my polyamory. I am at peace with my decision and am not angry or upset about choosing to remain monogamous, but I still know that I am polyamorous.


I have met many wonderful people in the poly community and have learned from them. There are some great folks out there living life the way I thought could only happen in dreams. If this is your dream, before becoming involved in a standard relationship do yourself a favor and learn more about polyamory and give it a try if it feels right.