yikes!
So i just applied for a loan online to take the paramedic class… That’s facing a fear. doing something with my life that i actually want vs. just working in a coffee shop.
i’ll find out within 24 hours if i got approved or denied. then from there i have to go to the school, sign some stuff, give them copies of stuff… and…. pee my pants cuz i’ll be so scared of doing something!!! :-)

sigh
but i have to remember that everything that happens is for my own betterment and i have to trust my higher power

if i DON’T get the loan, it happened for a reason. I don’t have to like it, or accept it. I just have to deal with it.