Seriously, the most frustrating thing is my inability to focus; it drives me crazy. Forget the grand sxcheme, I can’t even focus on simple things. It’s not even like it’s the things that bore me; stuff that I am completely interested in and whole-heartedly love, I just can’t get my mind to slow down. I think in someways on some things it’s like I’m unconsciously sabatoging myself b/c if I truly focus on it and get to a certain place in it, the possibilities are literally beyond this world. How can I expect to have… whatever, I can’t even think about it long enough to finish an entry…