I know why it is so slow also. Everytime I read mediocre work I blame myself for not having been clearer about various things. Particularly for this one class I feel that it was really the blind leading the blinder-but really how could it have been anything else, since I didn’t know anything about this topic when I took this course on? Plus there was so much I didn’t know about the students, and the whole culture of the institution. If I were to teach this course again it would be so much better, but unfortunately it’s just too late now. :(.

I also feel like I’m getting lazy/sloppy about the survey. I’m just tired out and want it to be over. At least I have a clean slate in the spring, and I’m not teaching anything I know nothing about.

But that’s really why it has been so slow. It’s not simply that I’m a procrastinator; it’s that grading makes me confront all the powerful feelings of inadequacy I’ve been dragging around this term. If only it didn’t always revolve around me it would be better for me and better for the students.