I think I’m going to give it up – not the kissing a girl thing of course… but her. It just turned out to be disappointing. I passed her on my way to school and she smiled to me – but that was it. She wasn’t there at the charitymeeting, which really annoyed me. In fact No-one was there. I knew we were dying when I came in the board but I didn’t expect it to be this bad.. I mean.. hello.. new board = new style etc.. Nobody mailed that they would not come, and yet nobody came. I sent her a mail if she was still interested in charityco – she sent me a mail that that would depend on what our plans were and that we should have send a reminder that there was a meeting. We indeed forgot. She said she was sorry but the mail was not really friendly.
I don’t like it really – but I still have those questions. I should just erase them from my mind somehow. The good thing is that I just finished my exams. Just the ball and getting grades back. I dislike balls, now even more because I’ll probably see her there.

So I guess the ‘kissing-a-girl’ thing will be something not happening in the near future since I do not know any other girls that are both kissable and not arrogant and just nice and that I’m not too shy with. (And that want to kiss me)