Everything looks grey and black right now.
No job, no life, boring and apathic
I ‘ve passed times that I’ve felt as you feel now
Thank God not at present, but I’m still on medication
I thougt then than things would never mend, that I would never heal
But years have passed and I have been getting better
I don’t know, I think that one think that gave me hope was that at one moment I realised that even being in a very bad condition I could help other people, and people could help me, if I simply ask for help
Go to therapy
I have better days and worst days,
my mood is really shaky
I don’t think I need medication because I somehow feel I can control it, it’s in my head, but sometimes I just surrender to this instead of fighting…
But who knows?
I wish therapy was less expencive and I could go without having to tell my parents I’m doing this..
Thanks for the comments :)
I’m kindof OK now
Though I still have the same problems in my life – no job, my parents pressure to go studying and more…
But the thing is to be happy despite those problems and not let them get me..
rhetorical may actually be optimistic
At 17, when I was under my parent’s health insurance, I called my local HMO and got an appointment with a Psychologist Intern without parent notification/consent. Now, that was in the 90’s, rules change, and different organizations have different policies, but…
That same HMO has a free, eight week CBT based Managing Your Depression class that I took just a few months ago. They even gave us a meditation CD, Health Journeys: For People With Depression, that you might find helpful.
Many therapists in private practice have sliding fee scales. There may be community organizations that may provide low cost services using your income, rather than your parent’s income as a payment guideline.
Also, there are schools that train future therapists. They often have sliding fee scales, as low as $10 a session. You’d see a student or intern, rather than someone with years of experience. But, sometimes that’s enough.
Some high schools, also have counseling interns that provide some limited free services to students. Parent consent might be an issue there.
So, your community may have services that you can access cheaply without your parents knowledge. The challenge might be to find them. Good luck!