i like to play costumes and dress up. i do. i love creating a new face or add a touch to my persona(s) with a splash of shimmery iridescence on my eyelids. i don’t want to give it up altogether, b/c it can be a fun and harmless way to lift one’s spirits and free oneself from the drudgery of ‘hello, you’re the absolute same face i saw last night in the mirror.’
what IS shallow, and what i want to give up, is the insane need and habit i have of using it all the time. or the feeling that i simply can’t do without it. now, included in this is my supreme insecurity about the condition of my skin – which is not leperous or malformed in any way, just not clear. not ‘perfect’ shall we say? not creamy, not glowing, not ‘healthy’. just red and blotchy and slightly broken more often than not (if i’m being fair, i don’t have gigantor patches of acne, just spots).
so, goal:
get rid of the shallow vanity about not having clear skin, wanting it and/or feeling it NECESSARY to cover all myself up with goo!
goodbye goo!


